Praise God indeed that i have great friends around me who i intend to learn and grow with in life.
Tonight's just another normal night but reflecting on the past 6 months here, i realized that i am not the same as i was before i came here, for better or for worse. But definitely, somehow somewhere i have changed. Although it's yet to be clear what have, the journey of self reflection will definitely show them up one by one.
Feeling exceptionally tired recently. After examining the past few weeks, i suddenly felt a strong pang of fear, burden and tiredness. Too much going on in life, too little time to take a breath. There are so many things wanting to be done, and yet, so many wanted things to be done. In light of the problems that some of my friends have, i realized that it's really not an easy journey life is.
Prayer is indeed most needed now. I once heard from my friend, "God always answers prayers, but sometimes, not in the way you want to". And i believe so. Although it's been tiring, i can't give thanks enough to God for His blessings. In fact, compared with so many others, i really don't have anything to complain about. I am so much more fortunate to the people around me, even just seeing the sun rising each day sets me apart from a lot of people.
I am blessed and i am indeed highly favored. I like the quote that "unless you learn to die, you will never learn to live". I remembered that there was this one day that i had a throbbing pain in my chest (possibly a muscle tear after swimming) but i seriously thought that it could be a symptom of heart attack (call me paranoid !), and i just prayed that i will wake up the next day as i lay down on my bed. That moment really made me realize that there are so many simple things in life that we take for granted, and so many blessings in life that we fail to give thanks to God for.
God only have three types of response to prayers:
1) Yeah sure ! Tell me what is your plan and we can work this out together !
2) Hmm.. yeap, going to give it to you, but can you just perhaps wait a bit longer, please ?
3) I see.. well.. tell you what, scrap that thing you want, i am going to give you a bettter one !
Hahaha.. gosh, felt so much clear headed now. I think God put me in life at this place here, right now for a reason. I did not make it into Oxbridge for some reasons, and i am not doing medicine or engineering, definitely for some reasons. Whatever that reasons, i will learn each day to trust in God that whatever happens, He will always supersede my expectations !
Just because i can't see how my situation currently fits into the big picture, doesn't mean that it is not a major part in God's framework of life for me =)
Although sometimes i have yet to understand nor grasp the idea of what God wants for me, i pray that everyday i will continue to live the life that God has given me to the fullest ! =D
2 comments:
You gave me a scare at the 'throbbing pain in my chest' part! =/
But I love this post so much! So glad you're doing great. =)
Sarah once told me this. Something I'll always remember -
God only gives you the best
and if things don't work out the way we expect it to,
it just means that something even greater is coming your way
because you are "fearfully and wonderfully made" - Psalms 139:14
and you are God's 'treasured possession'!! : ) - Exodus 19:5
People change, circumstances change, but God's divine purpose for your life stays constant, and it is greater than what we can imagine. We are so, so valuable in His sight, and He will carry us through it all.
People do change, that is the painful reality, their priorities change, and their life goals change sometimes.
But I can assure you, what God has planned, will come to past. And nothing will affect that. If things change, it only means that you're getting closer to the right purpose God has in your life. And you will be filled with joy like never before. :)
Take care! :)
Cheong E Von. :)
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