Point of No Return

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I doubted if I should ever come back

Yesterday night, i made a decision.

This morning 9.15 a.m., with one phone call, i sealed the pact.

I am through thinking. I am done with the contemplations. With a blind leap of faith, i have now stepped into uncharted waters, all alone.

I have no idea what is the outcome of this decision, for the better or for the worse. I've weighed my options, i've arranged strategies to counter all the problems that may arise because of this ONE single decision, but is it enough ? =(

This decision has the potential to rock the very foundation i am in right now. Sacrifices will be made, tears will be shed, and for the first time for a very long time, i am scared. This decision will expose me to a lot of unforeseen problems, despite my effort to "look down one as far as I could, to where it bent in the undergrowth". I am now more vulnerable than before, i need my friends, more than ever.

It is just i and i alone against the world

But still, despite its terrifying consequences, i see it not a luxury but a necessity for my future, for the greater good. It is, and has been part of the big picture of life, MY life. *Sigh*

No use pondering on it now, i've sealed the pact, i have done the deal. Whether or not this decision will bring harm or good, the responsibility of this decision lies in me and me alone and i alone shall walk down this road.

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn. I'm on my own. And i know what i gotta do. Because i am the one who'll decide where i am to go in life, for the better or for the worse.

This is truly the point of no return, for the better of for the worse. And i am scared.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference.

~adapted from The Road Not Taken

I hope i have made the right decision.

P.S. Thank you Ah Hwa for your constant support and for providing me with informations. I am lucky to have a good friend like you. =D